manipulations warier!

I do not understand why those dudes were so childish. even though u can see an old man with the stubborn characteristic which is similar to a 3-year-old child. this evidence was happened right after my work as they were fetching me from carrefour kepong.

My selfish, demanding, arrogance and ego 2nd brother was going to stay over night with his beloved friends which had the 1st prior in his life! And this consequence the happenings just to satisfy his needs!

Guess who is the driver? Of cause, my dad! My dear ego daddy!! I told him there's better way to get to the destination. He interrupted and STICK CLOSELY TO HIS PRINCIPAL!

Seriously mad me up! I am sick with those people whoever questions my skills even though the do not speak. But he shown. As he passes two toll and pay for rm1.60 each toll, and I told them May Suet's mum doesn't passes any tolls when she brought me to the destination. Yes! Theoretically and confirmatory, he shut-up! Its actually a scene where an ordinary and typically ego man will do when they found their faults~

Certain thoughts across my mind such that in the ancient, what is the position of ladies? Ladies were described as a protective houses for baby growing due to the physical abilities where those guys are stronger then the ladies! And they will never appreciate how precious the ladies are! Are your daddy going to breast feed you? Zygote formed within female! Guys are just playing a role in which donating the useful fertilising gamete, sperm! And what if women never undergo menstruation period where no follicles form and no ovum? What are the function for the sperm? What is the purpose of life driven?

I found that I am hardly to tolerant with ego, demanding, selfish, childish in which will carry "this is the order!" as life motto!! But these all nature of a guy! That is why more university females than males!

terms and regulations and also not forgetting conditions, perhaps.

There was a funny scene in the morning after the daily short assembly. Our class was requested to stay for a moment right before we were going up to the class room. We were then asked to put down our bags and line-up according to the gender.

Yes! It's spot-check. No, should be shocked-check. ><

By the time, I were actually chit chatting with my lovely buddies after the pocket check-up. However, my sight was big enough to watch that unmissable funny scene. All the guys in my class were facing the other side, showing they back-side of the body and jumping! Three times jumping!!

OH-MY-GOODNESS. Everyone were started to laugh, but we were all good enough in behaving where we haven rolling up on the floor. ><

It is so funny. And it comes to our turn, but girls jumped one after the other. So it decrease the funny rate. And the guys cannot see up jumping~ hahahaha

Is this the procedure of spot-check?

Or we should think another way-round, whereby its not a easy task for the prefects to duty in this way, but what is the point? I just felt that is a waste of time doing this towards the form 6. We are no longer kid and we were over 18. Or maybe this was one of the prefect association annual or monthly activities?

OK, stop considering the initiations, but at least you look for the form 6 prefects or do adequate researches before you can actually fine us. Time is precious especially to the form 6!

Last year before we entering the school, we had checked and found out the school attire for form 6 in raja abdullah. And were been told to wear black stockings and covered shoes after we bought it. However the teacher stopped bothering after knowing the family financial problems of the students taking form 6.

The question is, why we were asked what to wear in this morning?

So, I took a deep breath in and a heavily breath out with "haaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiyyyyyyyyyoooooooooooo!!!"

找不回以前的我

越来越搞不懂现在我要的到底是什么。

毫无目的地向前迈进真的很可怕。

我其实没事去任何的本质；只是不断的在为自己评估，我也不知道自己是否做错了。

理论上是不断地迈进，没错。可是，又好像给自己太多的压力。

我应该怎么办？

照照镜子看见自己憔悴的模样，突然心里浮现了一个问题：这是谁？

再拿起手机自拍，感觉都已不在了。

再用遮瑕膏补补，再涂了涂护唇膏，又摸上了眼影、腮红。

是有了点气色，也添加了些色彩；

同一个问题依然浮现：这真的是我吗？

感觉到了自己的变化。

脸色也渐渐跟着身体产生变化。

什么时候我才能恢复以前的样貌？

挥洒自如的让人羡慕？

我不竟对生活有了厌倦感；对于任何东西都缺乏了一种元素。

是什么样的元素，就是从复性的思虑也想不通该怎么去把它具体化。

它是所有的原动力，它可以决定结局。

它很奇妙，似有似无，没有形体可言。

你看不到却感应到。

是我病了所以它离开了我？

它到底是什么呢？

我对周遭的所有事物失去了信任，这使到我无法敬请发挥，信心没了、意志消沉。

突然想不起来以前发生类似的事情是谁给予我暖助。

模糊当中好像能回忆起当初，现在我真的记不起来了。

难道是我自己？

又或者我心里面的那个好朋友呢？

到后来，发现了其实所有的所有、结局的定局、完完全全都是来自于信心。

模糊当中让我想到了～

就是我自信的笑容。

就是那个让我挥洒自如的原动力。

才发现原来事情的开始莫过于我自己的思维。

谢谢你，可爱的笑容。

是时候学学微笑pasta的成小诗啦～

渴望的女人味呀～

女人味怎么可能会在我这种那么‘可爱’ 的女生身上存在？

明天呀。。。我就惨了！

拜托拜托。。。

可以不要让我遇上公司的人吗？

好害怕哟～

我怎么可能会积极的推销产品呢？多谢！><

还要化妆！！我又想说那三个英文字母了哦～

OMG

亲爱的老天爷呀～你多疼我一些嘛～

please please~~

囧

我的女人味只有在和我男朋友独处的时候才有啊。。。

怎么可以那么随便释放的？

既然如此，

反正也是时候了～明年就2字头咯!

是时候做个姐姐了～

你要看好咯！！

愚人节的大愚人

我们之间有太多太多的不应该

谁对谁错也罢

事实如此 该拿得起放得下 我累了 眼中装满疲惫 双唇已是干枯洁白

已厌倦了你的声音 一而再的苦苦相逼 留下了悔恨的淤积

你我的希望已破碎 又谈什么愿望？

我的脑袋可大！ 装了你我的思维。

这是你让我的了解，事情不是一定要说清才明白；你什么时候才学会了解

这不是成熟与幼稚，也不是天才与蠢才。

是理解，稳定，斯文，风度，教养。你却无法完美呈现；凡是随心而实行。

我其实对你也不满。日月累积，一次又一次的机会，你能感受吗？

我的不对是什么？你认为你看清了不？

我看来憔悴非常，并非完全是你。人生中还有很多很多。

何不加大视线看得更广远呢？你永远只停留于曾经拥有而后来的天长地久何去？

你时常叫我认命改运，不断突破，增值自己。而你呢？

你时常说别冲动于一时而你却竭尽所能用力挽回粗鲁的把握按向一部罗里！

你把我丢得很痛！我恨你！

好不容易狠下心来你为什么呢？

这不是我喜欢的你，变了！大家都变了！

或许此时此刻的爱恨情仇就是以后的刻苦铭心 又或许是以后的一个被遗忘的记忆呢？

何必执著？放松，解脱～

我已不在了

新突破

如果给自己一个新突破，去把心情藏起来，地球会为我而停止转动吗？

隐藏是因为对你的爱；累了，累得不想说出来。

我没事！说了没事就没那么容易让你知道。

我其实有很多其实， 可是我太饿了全把它们吃光了。

好饱～我又要去改变了～

我的18岁

我的18岁生日就这样过去了……

并没有特别的期待，只想要一个简单的生日蛋糕。

怎么知道，家里没有一个人记得我的生日。

生日当天是星期五；而且还有辅导活动。

当天的放学后就一直留在学校。

下午2时左右就往金江中学出发。

活动持续好几个小时一直到下午5时。

下午5时30分才回到学校。

在巴士站等了一个小时决定了走路回家。

在回学校的车程中打了给二哥其实也没要求他一定要来载我啦……

只跟他说如果没巴士才需要他呀……

结果妈打来骂人了。

理由是二哥要出去玩所以没车来载我。

需要骂人吗？

在还没等之前其实已经知道这个时间是没有巴士的。

到巴士站等是相信会有一丝希望，然后就不必靠他了。

毕竟他也不是什么好东西。

复杂的念头搞得我头乱七八糟的。

结果就悬着靠自己咯～

我的11号车呀……幸苦咯～

T.T

走路回家而已嘛……没什么大不了！爸爸上个星期六也这样回的……

我一直用着同样的想法来说服自己，结果一通电话让我的眼泪像急流的河水那样一涌而下。

是妈打来问我上了巴士没。我说我走着路回家，成天还没完全黑以前赶回家。

结果他又在骂我了。说我跟爸一样（爸没车回家时也走路回）。

靠自己最实际，走路回不用你的废柴儿子来在我呀！

难道要我一个女生在巴士站等到天黑哦？

德士又贵又不安全，德士色魔，我可不想也不敢见识！

上下左右都是难，不如选择最经济的～

走路顶多一个钟多而已嘛～

走到KTM脚很酸很想坐下休息休息。

都走了50多分钟……走多一下就要到了啦……

路上妈有打过好几次电话问我在哪。

大哥和爸也有。

我都跟他们说我要到了。

对他们的感觉用两个字就好了——失望。

回到家打开家门走上楼回房间。

门口的爸由我从隔壁街看着我开门进屋子，在看着我走上楼去。

他在看什么想什么我不想去理会。

我已经累得吃饭都没有力气了。

妈看都不敢看我一直在追着帮别人看的小孩。

真想发脾气的，可是我昨天没睡好；是一整夜都没睡。

都怪凤玲安排功课得不好所以从新调整调整。

这就是平凡都市女孩的生活吗？

我精疲力尽。哭也没能。