隐藏是因为对你的爱；累了，累得不想说出来。
我没事！说了没事就没那么容易让你知道。
我其实有很多其实， 可是我太饿了全把它们吃光了。
好饱～我又要去改变了～
Monday, July 12, 2010
我的18岁
我的18岁生日就这样过去了……
并没有特别的期待，只想要一个简单的生日蛋糕。
怎么知道，家里没有一个人记得我的生日。
生日当天是星期五；而且还有辅导活动。
当天的放学后就一直留在学校。
下午2时左右就往金江中学出发。
活动持续好几个小时一直到下午5时。
下午5时30分才回到学校。
在巴士站等了一个小时决定了走路回家。
在回学校的车程中打了给二哥其实也没要求他一定要来载我啦……
只跟他说如果没巴士才需要他呀……
结果妈打来骂人了。
理由是二哥要出去玩所以没车来载我。
需要骂人吗？
在还没等之前其实已经知道这个时间是没有巴士的。
到巴士站等是相信会有一丝希望，然后就不必靠他了。
毕竟他也不是什么好东西。
复杂的念头搞得我头乱七八糟的。
结果就悬着靠自己咯～
我的11号车呀……幸苦咯～
T.T
走路回家而已嘛……没什么大不了！爸爸上个星期六也这样回的……
我一直用着同样的想法来说服自己，结果一通电话让我的眼泪像急流的河水那样一涌而下。
是妈打来问我上了巴士没。我说我走着路回家，成天还没完全黑以前赶回家。
结果他又在骂我了。说我跟爸一样（爸没车回家时也走路回）。
靠自己最实际，走路回不用你的废柴儿子来在我呀！
难道要我一个女生在巴士站等到天黑哦？
德士又贵又不安全，德士色魔，我可不想也不敢见识！
上下左右都是难，不如选择最经济的～
走路顶多一个钟多而已嘛～
走到KTM脚很酸很想坐下休息休息。
都走了50多分钟……走多一下就要到了啦……
路上妈有打过好几次电话问我在哪。
大哥和爸也有。
我都跟他们说我要到了。
对他们的感觉用两个字就好了——失望。
回到家打开家门走上楼回房间。
门口的爸由我从隔壁街看着我开门进屋子，在看着我走上楼去。
他在看什么想什么我不想去理会。
我已经累得吃饭都没有力气了。
妈看都不敢看我一直在追着帮别人看的小孩。
真想发脾气的，可是我昨天没睡好；是一整夜都没睡。
都怪凤玲安排功课得不好所以从新调整调整。
这就是平凡都市女孩的生活吗？
我精疲力尽。哭也没能。
Monday, June 14, 2010
Who am I?
Whenever i ask this question to my self, certain identities cross my mind. Which is me? The real one, I do not know.
Why is this happen? Since when? I do not know it well.
I had deep inside my heart for so long. I am afraid to let others know my real self it is all because lacking of confidence.
The courage of saying all this out is losing. But I do not know how it start, i told my boy friend last night. He let me to finish all my story with out interrupting.
I am telling him that i am so fool to tell the others my real mind I will only change my mind even thought how much i care for it. What in my mind was I afraid to let people think i am weird. So i act. every single moment. I-ACT.
So what? No ones would know. I so care for those testimonials and comments. Why so? Lacking of confidence. And it really taking my breath away.
I felt the air of relieve when I finish the story. I can sense the joy of happiness. I am now calm and passion. I can view clearer. And I could step once in front of the other to let them know m real self. This is me. I love my self it is just because I am unique. ^^V
KEN Z.H, I love you. Thank You very much~~~
I am happy to become my self~ ^^V
Why is this happen? Since when? I do not know it well.
I had deep inside my heart for so long. I am afraid to let others know my real self it is all because lacking of confidence.
The courage of saying all this out is losing. But I do not know how it start, i told my boy friend last night. He let me to finish all my story with out interrupting.
I am telling him that i am so fool to tell the others my real mind I will only change my mind even thought how much i care for it. What in my mind was I afraid to let people think i am weird. So i act. every single moment. I-ACT.
So what? No ones would know. I so care for those testimonials and comments. Why so? Lacking of confidence. And it really taking my breath away.
I felt the air of relieve when I finish the story. I can sense the joy of happiness. I am now calm and passion. I can view clearer. And I could step once in front of the other to let them know m real self. This is me. I love my self it is just because I am unique. ^^V
KEN Z.H, I love you. Thank You very much~~~
I am happy to become my self~ ^^V
Friday, May 21, 2010
22nd May 2010
Its been 21 days I've been back from my home town vocation since 2nd of March. And my form 6 is begun, new life, new journey.
Its really turf as u considering form 6 is turf every things are depending on oneself. I had to surfing internet for general paper and MUET ( Malaysia University English Test
After i came back here and prepared for my new life, i am sad to end up all my foolish consideration. As in my 1st thought I back to home town, expecting he would accompany me for maybe twice in a week but he don't. Yes, he is romantic but he cares for his friends greater than me ever. As we are on a date, his hand phone is rang, rang and rang. Why can't he tell them that we are on a date? And I am not always in my home town. We had very few dates why he still allowing his friend to disturb us? So, we fought and break up. Then the other guy was chasing me. =.=
His surname is Ken. And he is totally different from the formal. In the aspect of romantic and also love-relation. This is not why I accepting him the reason for accepting him is because i already fall for him. Perhaps, I admire the way he proposing?
Anyway, until now, I still enjoying every single moment together with him. What I can say is he had a very happy family which is very friendly. I am not doing comparison, but he treat me very tender. Maybe this is the way i admire ever. :)
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Childish managing director~
As i written in few previous blogs, you will know how i hate my bos!
grr!!
I gave him a notice that i wanna quit this job at the end of Feb. And the reason i gave is i have no transport. he asked me to tell him on da next day but i din.
So, after Chinese new year, upon passing up the resign letter, he asked me to stay til 13 march. But the problem is, Puisan wanna continue the job until 13 march!
Shitt!!
Oh! worthless & pointless excuse so i went home and discuss with dad.
then i tell him on da next day saying dat i wanna look for form 6 school in the town. he just nod his head and speak less.
^^V
after that, he sent an email to mei yeng asking her to do a vacancy advertising. and below da email, there was certain words which make me felt he is childish!!
written there: Pui San gonna end her job by 13th on next month. Sophia gonna end by this month. And da excuse 1st she told me is she had no transport but the second excuse is she wanna look for form 6 school in kl. Why not she told me that she dislike me instead of giving me excuses like this?
@.@ it is so inocent! haha...
By the way i am very happy coz i did make him angry!! hehe~~ ^^V
Yeah buh-bye bear2
:P
grr!!
I gave him a notice that i wanna quit this job at the end of Feb. And the reason i gave is i have no transport. he asked me to tell him on da next day but i din.
So, after Chinese new year, upon passing up the resign letter, he asked me to stay til 13 march. But the problem is, Puisan wanna continue the job until 13 march!
Shitt!!
Oh! worthless & pointless excuse so i went home and discuss with dad.
then i tell him on da next day saying dat i wanna look for form 6 school in the town. he just nod his head and speak less.
^^V
after that, he sent an email to mei yeng asking her to do a vacancy advertising. and below da email, there was certain words which make me felt he is childish!!
written there: Pui San gonna end her job by 13th on next month. Sophia gonna end by this month. And da excuse 1st she told me is she had no transport but the second excuse is she wanna look for form 6 school in kl. Why not she told me that she dislike me instead of giving me excuses like this?
@.@ it is so inocent! haha...
By the way i am very happy coz i did make him angry!! hehe~~ ^^V
Yeah buh-bye bear2
:P
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
CNY Special~~
woo~ Nothing special actually just acting bunny on CNY which means i don really follow all the cultures of chinese as i was sleep on CNY eve and washed my hair in the 1st day of CNY! Then i din take the lokyaw leave bath~ =.="
So, my CNY is a damn boring festival! ever! =.="
I only went to mum's home town and Pui San's House so far and may attend to Yee yen's house by tonight after work =.="
And so i went to timesquare last sunday too... haha...
let's have a look on my photo~~ ^^V
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I found a job!
Yes! a job! real bad! '^' grrrr!
the bos keep on looking for my problem then blame me on..
i ware trying to keep quiet at first but i found once he was pointing out the wrong matter which is not my fault! so i fight back....
and
bad thing happen!
As he sms me at 1st " Sophia, try to understand the situation b4 u mess it"
and i replied " the customer walk in and yelled that she wanna get recycle cartridge so i consider she was a supplier!"
then
he forward this message to one of my colic and some additional text! "is this written by sophia?"
=.="
the colic just answer him "maybe"
after almost half of an hour and the office hour is finished!
he text back " You should use ya capacity to cool down the customer and to ask who is she/he and where she/he came from. For an example:......"
BULL SHIT!
the problem is i am the one to get recycle toner for her only because of Pui San! she don wanna call the bos which is describe as fierce bear by us!!^^
then i pressed the phone for her and she passes to me! hate her so much! she can't even feed a job nicely!
and her english is weird! sorry its worst!!!
phew~~
then she pass me da phone coz she don wanna ans dat phone! ei!
hate this job!!! but have to feed it for few months...
T.T
can some 1 please help me????
the bos keep on looking for my problem then blame me on..
i ware trying to keep quiet at first but i found once he was pointing out the wrong matter which is not my fault! so i fight back....
and
bad thing happen!
As he sms me at 1st " Sophia, try to understand the situation b4 u mess it"
and i replied " the customer walk in and yelled that she wanna get recycle cartridge so i consider she was a supplier!"
then
he forward this message to one of my colic and some additional text! "is this written by sophia?"
=.="
the colic just answer him "maybe"
after almost half of an hour and the office hour is finished!
he text back " You should use ya capacity to cool down the customer and to ask who is she/he and where she/he came from. For an example:......"
BULL SHIT!
the problem is i am the one to get recycle toner for her only because of Pui San! she don wanna call the bos which is describe as fierce bear by us!!^^
then i pressed the phone for her and she passes to me! hate her so much! she can't even feed a job nicely!
and her english is weird! sorry its worst!!!
phew~~
then she pass me da phone coz she don wanna ans dat phone! ei!
hate this job!!! but have to feed it for few months...
T.T
can some 1 please help me????
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