Who am I?

Whenever i ask this question to my self, certain identities cross my mind. Which is me? The real one, I do not know.

Why is this happen? Since when? I do not know it well.

I had deep inside my heart for so long. I am afraid to let others know my real self it is all because lacking of confidence.

The courage of saying all this out is losing. But I do not know how it start, i told my boy friend last night. He let me to finish all my story with out interrupting.

I am telling him that i am so fool to tell the others my real mind I will only change my mind even thought how much i care for it. What in my mind was I afraid to let people think i am weird. So i act. every single moment. I-ACT.

So what? No ones would know. I so care for those testimonials and comments. Why so? Lacking of confidence. And it really taking my breath away.

I felt the air of relieve when I finish the story. I can sense the joy of happiness. I am now calm and passion. I can view clearer. And I could step once in front of the other to let them know m real self. This is me. I love my self it is just because I am unique. ^^V


KEN Z.H, I love you. Thank You very much~~~



I am happy to become my self~ ^^V

22nd May 2010

Its been 21 days I've been back from my home town vocation since 2nd of March. And my form 6 is begun, new life, new journey.

Its really turf as u considering form 6 is turf every things are depending on oneself. I had to surfing internet for general paper and MUET ( Malaysia University English Test).

After i came back here and prepared for my new life, i am sad to end up all my foolish consideration. As in my 1st thought I back to home town, expecting he would accompany me for maybe twice in a week but he don't. Yes, he is romantic but he cares for his friends greater than me ever. As we are on a date, his hand phone is rang, rang and rang. Why can't he tell them that we are on a date? And I am not always in my home town. We had very few dates why he still allowing his friend to disturb us? So, we fought and break up. Then the other guy was chasing me. =.=

His surname is Ken. And he is totally different from the formal. In the aspect of romantic and also love-relation. This is not why I accepting him the reason for accepting him is because i already fall for him. Perhaps, I admire the way he proposing?

Anyway, until now, I still enjoying every single moment together with him. What I can say is he had a very happy family which is very friendly. I am not doing comparison, but he treat me very tender. Maybe this is the way i admire ever. :)

Kota kinabalu trip

Currently unavailable now. just wait for the new blog in chinese~~
^^V

Childish managing director~

As i written in few previous blogs, you will know how i hate my bos!
grr!!
I gave him a notice that i wanna quit this job at the end of Feb. And the reason i gave is i have no transport. he asked me to tell him on da next day but i din.
So, after Chinese new year, upon passing up the resign letter, he asked me to stay til 13 march. But the problem is, Puisan wanna continue the job until 13 march!
Shitt!!
Oh! worthless & pointless excuse so i went home and discuss with dad.
then i tell him on da next day saying dat i wanna look for form 6 school in the town. he just nod his head and speak less.
^^V
after that, he sent an email to mei yeng asking her to do a vacancy advertising. and below da email, there was certain words which make me felt he is childish!!
written there: Pui San gonna end her job by 13th on next month. Sophia gonna end by this month. And da excuse 1st she told me is she had no transport but the second excuse is she wanna look for form 6 school in kl. Why not she told me that she dislike me instead of giving me excuses like this?
@.@ it is so inocent! haha...
By the way i am very happy coz i did make him angry!! hehe~~ ^^V
Yeah buh-bye bear2
:P

CNY Special~~

woo~ Nothing special actually just acting bunny on CNY which means i don really follow all the cultures of chinese as i was sleep on CNY eve and washed my hair in the 1st day of CNY! Then i din take the lokyaw leave bath~ =.="

So, my CNY is a damn boring festival! ever! =.="

I only went to mum's home town and Pui San's House so far and may attend to Yee yen's house by tonight after work =.="

And so i went to timesquare last sunday too... haha...

let's have a look on my photo~~ ^^V

I found a job!

Yes! a job! real bad! '^' grrrr!
the bos keep on looking for my problem then blame me on..
i ware trying to keep quiet at first but i found once he was pointing out the wrong matter which is not my fault! so i fight back....

and

bad thing happen!
As he sms me at 1st " Sophia, try to understand the situation b4 u mess it"
and i replied " the customer walk in and yelled that she wanna get recycle cartridge so i consider she was a supplier!"

then

he forward this message to one of my colic and some additional text! "is this written by sophia?"
=.="
the colic just answer him "maybe"

after almost half of an hour and the office hour is finished!
he text back " You should use ya capacity to cool down the customer and to ask who is she/he and where she/he came from. For an example:......"

BULL SHIT!

the problem is i am the one to get recycle toner for her only because of Pui San! she don wanna call the bos which is describe as fierce bear by us!!^^
then i pressed the phone for her and she passes to me! hate her so much! she can't even feed a job nicely!

and her english is weird! sorry its worst!!!
phew~~
then she pass me da phone coz she don wanna ans dat phone! ei!

hate this job!!! but have to feed it for few months...
T.T
can some 1 please help me????

after form 5

Form 5 is over turning onto new path of life. I am happy because I had grew older now as my mum would not treat me like a little girl! I wish to continue my study at form 6 but before that let me take a rest and prepare for the next journey!

In the period of resting, i would like to get some job so that i can get some money to get driving license. so, i shall make a to-do-list!!

1. Find a job
2. get driving license
3. buy nails accessory
   
4. buy reading materials (magazine eg. cleo)
   
5. save money
6. prepare for form 6 =.=

oh~~ its only 6 step...
ok stop here!